Truthfully I want to die, and leave this place. I wish people could see how I really feel. Wearing a happy mask to school everyday isn’t easy. But I can’t tell. Its all a secret. I miss my ex, I miss my friends, I miss my dad, I miss the way everything use to be. God is always with me holding my hand, but it sucks because God is the only person I have. I wish a soul would care. But every one hates me. I cut every night but no one sees, not even my mom. sometimes in the middle of class I wanna scream and throw something and bust out crying. Instead I clench my fist and hold it all in. I miss you old life, please come back home.
I have been in your shoes. I went through a few periods where I just wanted to die. I didn’t see the point in living. I had too many questions and not enough answers. Then my best friend intervened and I’m slowly getting better. I know I don’t know you, and I don’t know your story, but I can tell you that you are beautiful and you deserve to be happy. No one should ever feel the need to cut themselves, or hurt themselves in any other way. God has bigger and better plans for you, I guarantee it. You may be alone now, but I’m 100% positive that God is saving you up for special people who will love you and treat you the way you deserve to be treated. I’m praying for you. Please, draw out your pain, write a poem, listen to music, dance when no one’s watching. Do something that makes you happy. Just please, stop hurting yourself. That doesn’t make anything better, it’s just another thing to hide. God made you and he has plans for you. Don’t let his plans for you be cut short because you face hardships now. I love you. <3